People change .Its a fact of life.I have changed quite a lot in the past 3 years .I have lost friends ,made new friends and fought with friends.
Sometimes i feel like my old friends reflect a whole different side of me,a side that i can very happily say i don't want to exhibit any more.Its weird how at one point of my life,i was making plans to see the world with these people and now i can't seem to have a five minute conversation with them, without feeling insulted,judged and over whelmed.I am disappointed in myself that my once feelings of excitement and joy have changed to such negativity but even with all the differences and scorned feelings,i can't bear to let go of them.They are my past .They tell the stories of how i became who i am today .Even if the "today" version of me can't coincide with my "older" version .
I just wonder,if i have grown such an immense amount in a couple of years and i am only 18 ,what does the rest of my life behold ?Will i be a whole new different person next year the same time?
Time is such a tease. It slows down when you want it to go faster and speeds up when you want it to go slow .Father Time,you are surly something.
I am making no sense , its just that i feel like i am fighting to keep whatever is left of my old friendships.Fighting daily and it aggravates me that my old friends can't seem to do the same.
Sunday, 15 July 2012
Friday, 13 July 2012
The People
There are people in this world , people who seem to astound me.
They walk among us assuming that they blend in but Oh No they don't.
These are people who I never fail to miss in a crowd.They don't seem out of the ordinary from the outside but inside,in there hearts,They are so completely and utterly different.In a world filled with power struggles and a day to day routine of showing off your various possessions.These people are the folks who stop on there way to work,just so they can help a old person cross the street ,they share,rather than show off,not because it would look rude but because they want too.These people spend there lives helping others or trying to help others.
They are extraordinary.
I admire them to my deepest core.Let me rephrase that,I admire anyone who has put a stranger in front of them.Opened a door for someone they didn't know or bought something useless from the old man sitting at the corner just because they could take some money back home.Oh I don't have words to explain my gratitude and to be honest that doesn't happen often.You know,I always somehow envied my friends who had a clear cut image of who they aspired to be,some wanted to be like there mothers or some wanted to be significant public figure.I never knew what kind of person i would love to be.I think I can say I know now.I want to be part of ,The People.I want to give a huge cyber round of applause to anyone who has ever done a random act of kindness.I know no matter how small or insignificant you may think it may be,it was truly appreciated.
They walk among us assuming that they blend in but Oh No they don't.
These are people who I never fail to miss in a crowd.They don't seem out of the ordinary from the outside but inside,in there hearts,They are so completely and utterly different.In a world filled with power struggles and a day to day routine of showing off your various possessions.These people are the folks who stop on there way to work,just so they can help a old person cross the street ,they share,rather than show off,not because it would look rude but because they want too.These people spend there lives helping others or trying to help others.
They are extraordinary.
I admire them to my deepest core.Let me rephrase that,I admire anyone who has put a stranger in front of them.Opened a door for someone they didn't know or bought something useless from the old man sitting at the corner just because they could take some money back home.Oh I don't have words to explain my gratitude and to be honest that doesn't happen often.You know,I always somehow envied my friends who had a clear cut image of who they aspired to be,some wanted to be like there mothers or some wanted to be significant public figure.I never knew what kind of person i would love to be.I think I can say I know now.I want to be part of ,The People.I want to give a huge cyber round of applause to anyone who has ever done a random act of kindness.I know no matter how small or insignificant you may think it may be,it was truly appreciated.
Real generosity is doing something nice for someone who will never find out. ~Frank A. Clark
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