Time is such a tease

People change .Its a fact of life.I have changed quite a lot in the past 3 years .I have lost friends ,made new friends and fought with friends.

Sometimes i feel like my old friends reflect a whole different side of me,a side that i can very happily say i don't want to exhibit any more.Its weird how at one point of my life,i was making plans to see the world with these people and now i can't seem to have a five minute conversation with them, without feeling insulted,judged and over whelmed.I am disappointed in myself that my once feelings of excitement and joy have changed to such negativity but even with all the differences and scorned feelings,i can't bear to let go of them.They are my past .They tell the stories of how i became who i am today .Even if the "today" version of me can't coincide with my "older" version .

I just wonder,if i have grown such an immense amount in a couple of years and i am only 18 ,what does the rest of my life behold ?Will i be a whole new different person next year the same time?
Time is such a tease. It slows down when you want it to go faster and speeds up when you want it to go slow .Father Time,you are surly something.

I am making no sense , its just that i feel like i am fighting to keep whatever is left of my old friendships.Fighting daily and it aggravates me that my old friends can't seem to do the same.